Dear J5,


This view from our balcony is very special to me.  It was a witness to the milestones in our relationship, and most of them were the moments my heart was at its happiest.

It was here that I decided to choose you.  Amidst the difficulties and complications.  It was here that I weighed things, and decided that I am choosing a partner who is honest.  I committed to you.

It was here that I saw fireworks on New Year's and Christmas when you were always the first one to call me.

It was here that I prayed to God to let my parents accept you.  It was here that I called you to say that I have already told my parents everything, and they said that they will accept whoever I will love.  You screamed out of joy, and we almost cried together.

It was here that I look out to some nights, talking to you, thanking the Lord for giving someone like you in my life.  We prayed together once, while I was looking up to the beautiful and clear night sky.

And tonight, it was the first time that I looked at this view with sadness.  I whispered a prayer for acceptance and strength.  I lost you, the love of my life, 12 days ago, and all the beautiful dreams that we had for ourselves, our family, our children.

I still ask why.



Love,

A5